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My weekend is suppose to be fun. My father got invitation from his office, to attend some office outing in Subang, West Java. It was hiking + ‘tea walk’.. Quite interesting actually..

Because my mom went to Surabaya to attend my long distance cousin marriage, so I got job as ‘daddysitter’.. Companied my father, and also watched for my father.. Hihihihi..:P Kinda fun, because it is like father daughter day out together.. My brother can not join us either, because he got something else to do..
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I can not close my eyes.. And I should go to bed right now.. The bad situation this morning, still on my mind.. I just can not help it, how I become very sad.. Indeed, I feel sad.. Feel very broken hearted.. Dissapointed.. And I still can not find a way to see at the bright side.. It just sucks !! And it still and probably will always be sucks !!

Gee.. why I feel like this.. Why I let this take the best of me.. One of my friend said to me earlier that only me who know the best of me.. But I still felt like I’m drowning.. Slowly.. but sure..
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If you read this, and you shocked, because that is so not me, yelling those 2 words aload.. Well I’m surprised also.. I just feel very low.. very useless.. very not appreciate it.. Those two words, quite representative for what I feel right now.. Just hoping for another good situation to save my soul..:(

Duh.. gw speechless deh rie.. Loe sumpah ya.. gak asikkk banget !!… Kalo bisa gak temen lagi.. boleh gak rie ? Huh.. abiss.. gak asiiikkk… Well then, as I told you before.. I knew it lah.. Hihihihihihi ;)) Tp yang jelas, I’m happy for you lah.. Don’t forget, because of this, you owe me sushi tei !!!

It just make my heart broken, just to know that something that I really love to do, is not that enjoyable again.. And that is because some person who is very wrong… Sometimes, I just want to say, I quit.. But that is not suppose to be like that.. I mean, I’m not a quitter.. I should be strong enough to handle pressure..

And maybe I think, is the pressure is too much ? How can I compare it ? It should be not that complicated.. But then I realise.. The people factor is very important.. You can walk into dessert with only a bottle of water with you.. If you are alone, I believe you will get desperate quickly.. But if you have companion, a very good companion, I believe there is still jokes and also fun in it..
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Just bought their CDs.. Quit a choice right ? Hihihihi.. Well, for the first choice, is recomended by my cousin, who is a big fan of Paul Gilbert.. When I first heard the name, I said “Who the hell is Paul Gilbert ?” Hihihihihi…. And he just scream at me (hiperbolic way) ” Oh my god, you don’t know Paul G ?, Where part on the earth do you live huh, if you don’t know Paul G ?” Hihihihi.. Very hiperbolic.. And I said, “Oh get it.. Mr. Big guitarist.. oh my god, your so 80s..” and then he continued to scream at me, and told me how good he really is (Paul G).. And after I promise to listen to his new CD, my cousin stop screaming at me.. So, I take my chance, I bought his new CD, without any hope at all that I’m gonna like it.. ;)) But strange thing is, when I bought the CD, there was another man who was looking for his new CD, and the CD that I was holding is the last copy in the store.. And he just beg to me, to give the last copy for him.. And I said, “Is he really good ?” And guess what, he told me everything about this Paul G, just like the way my cousin told me (screaming kinda way..) ;P.. I found it so funny, because there is people who really like this guy.. Well, I finally bought his CD, and already finished listen to it.. Hmm.. not bad.. not bad at all.. I guess the right word is, he is really good… no wonder that there are 2 peoples screaming at me in the same day about Paul G.. hihihihi ;)) Overall, the album is good but for my honest, not my kind of music, but he is good.. definitely.. and my brother agree with me..:)

Ok, my second choice is SMOMA… hehehe.. get it, “Who the hell is SMOMA ?” Well, I just know it from the sales man in duta suara, who is happen to be my friend.. And he said, there is a new jazz group from Italy.. And he said the album is quite best seller for jazz artist, and he gave me a chance to listen to their CD.. First time listened to their music, I just click.. Wow.. this is my kind of music.. I’m instantly fall in love with their styles.. Eventhough the song is like old song, recycle song.. But they played it in very unique way, very different, definitely very fun.. Fufufufu.. I knew it.. I always love jazz.. Like chicago said, It’s all that jazz..:D

Is there any choice to escape from bad situation ? When you feel suffocated, like you almost feel barely breathing because of something that keep coming, and you feel like it never ending.. Sigh.. I feel that kind of preasure lately… It is torturing.. But in the other side, I feel like, this is the way you evolve into something better.. Really ? Just pretend that you are always strong enough to handle all of this pressure.. But hey, maybe I can.. The pressure won’t kill me right ? If it doesn’t kill me, make me stronger..:D <fufufufu.. just encouraging myself, and keep the positive thinking alive..:)>