..Yesterday..Today..Tomorrow..

Silent for a moment
And I wish I could see the light
Take me higher, I beg you
Just take my hand and I will be stronger…

Don’t leave me in this cold moment
Where this madness is slowly killing my soul
I must go, I can’t stay
Just say the word and I will go..

Heartbearer I see in the corner
Waiting for rain to pour the earth
Tick tock, and the clock is still ticking
Oh just save my soul and I will adore you..

But even stranger can see that It’s over
And somehow I wish not to see
I trapped in this hollow dream
Just leave me and never look back

I wish what I wish
I get what I get
Am I happy with that ?
Just talk to me and I will know the truth..

It will over in every second the world turns
And yet, I will keep hoping this dream will never end
I will be vulnerable yet miserable
But just stay with me and I will fight for you…

I just made the hardest decision in my life..I don’t know how I really feels right know.. What I know is, this is the best for both of us.. Maybe we just don’t meant for each other.. And I really hope all the best for him.. He’s a great guy, and I hope he will find his true soul mate..

I’m such a big liar if I said that I’m ok.. The truth is.. Somehow it really hurts.. But I made my decision, and I already have thought about it for about a month..
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Hmm.. I’m wondering, in the last 6 months I got sick for about 5 times.. Wow, it’s quite a record for me. Am I become that fragile ? This morning I woke up with a very heavy feeling.. My body felt like burning.. And I suddenly panicked.. Because the day before I visited Tanjung my friend who has been hospitalized because of DB.. I was afraid that I got DB too.. I rushed to go to my family doctor and urged to have blood test.. ‘Negative for DB..’ my doctor said to me.. Fiuuhh.. She said that I got ordinary fever and she suggest that I must have bed rest.. Sleep enough, eat enough and plainly relaxing my self.. Well, that’s quite okay for me to do all she’s suggested..

Blue Moon
You saw me standing alone
Without a dream in my heart
Without a love of my own
Blue Moon
You know just what I was there for
You heard me saying a prayer for
And then there suddenly appeared before me
The only one my arms will hold
I heard somebody whisper please adore me
And when I looked to the Moon it turned to gold
Blue Moon
Now I’m no longer alone
Without a dream in my heart
Without a love of my own

~lagimenyecampurjadulcampurgakjelas..
gadogadokaliii..

Why.. oh why.. Just when I started to ‘click’ with this ‘small’ project (not PLN), I found out that the project is not feasible enough to me… Hix.. hix.. (

It’s been a while since I updated my last blog. When I went to London, it’s been quite an experienced.. I was scared.. But I didn’t feel nervous at all.. It’s all I really want..

Just thinking about London always makes me smile.. Smell of pine tree in English neighbourhood.. And the courtesy of the people who always say ‘Good Morning’, ‘Excuse Me’,'Thank you’ and ‘Sorry’.. Don’t forget magnificent places that I went on.. Bells of Big Ben, Pigeons at Trafalgar Square, Beefeater at Tower of London, Mummies at British Museum, Burger King at Leicester Square, Woman in White at Palace Theatre, Cute Guard at Buckingham Palace (hihihihihi..:P), nice shop at Marble Arch and covent garden, listened Daniel Powter’s song at Joi Buffet, Double Decker, Underground tube and also 4 Chimneys Avenue Hendon.. I miss all of those.. And I really want to go back again.. I hope I still got oportunity to go back to London..
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What can I say ? Tomorrow I’m going to go to London… I Huhuhu.. But I haven’t finished packing.. My suitcase is still empty.. Huaaa.. ( My coat is still in laundry.. And there are soo many stuff I haven’t packed yet.. Gee.. and it is already H-1.. Huaaaa.. And tomorrow I will take the first flight.. 6:20 AM.. Huhuhu..
Oh well, just hope that everything is gonna be ok.. Can not except more.. Just do my best lah..